Monday, September 22, 2008

I miss the Solitude

I really miss the solitude i used to get in my previous job. The solitude which gave me time to know myself.

There were some great places which had become part of my life. They gave me the time to reunite with myself. When I say, i was alone. It was not because the others threw me to it, but something which i wanted. I made sure that everyday of mine will have few minutes of solitude in any of these places- Near the pool, Near the fish pond or outside building 26.

When I was there, it was just me and me. There was no one to ask me why i sat there or no one to disturb me. It was a feeling of being alone in a crowd with a difference that is with no noise.

Now in this new place I miss these places. I need to reinvent and get me a place which will bring back me in myself.

As they say : "Loneliness is not the same as being alone. Everyone has times when they are alone through circumstances or choice. Being alone can be experienced as positive, pleasurable, and emotionally refreshing if it is under the individuals control. Solitude is the state of being alone and secluded from other people, and often implies having made a conscious choice to be alone. Loneliness is therefore unwilling solitude."

I am now craving for it.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

When good becomes bad!!!

Sometimes a questing lingers in my mind, do we have something called Good and Bad in this world. Can we really differentiate every entity in this world into 2 categories ‘Good’ and ‘Bad’. Not possible. Just for the reason that each one of us are unique, something which seems good for me might not be good for the other person.

Last week, I was all ecstatic and was in good spirit through out the day. I could see that one of my acquaintance is jealous and the behaviour of hers towards me was not good. But I don’t know why, I never took that to heart and even thought that ‘She is not in a good mood’. I am less forgiving usually.

But last Monday, my mood was off and everything around me seemed like conspiring against me. A joke of my friend, which I usually enjoy;annoyed me so much that I just back fired. And all sorts of thoughts flooded; all of a sudden I felt that that friendof mine is no good and I believed her blindly all these days.

Deciding good or bad is just our state of mind. We are happy, the world seems happy and we are sad, everything else is bad.